Wednesday, June 04, 2008

ruminations

I have felt a little
better the last
couple of days.
This flare was
one of the more
harsh I have
endured this
spring and it
warranted a visit
to see my doctor.
Blood tests galore,
a shot and some
scary low blood
pressure was
all part of the
routine.
But, I have the best doctor in the world who makes me feel better for just seeing him. He is indeed an angel in the disguise of a doctor. With berries ripening on the vine, I picked a few for my breakfast and sat with the sun on my face for just a quick moment. I am feeling thankful to be alive, to have family and friends that love me and a God that watches over me. I am always seeking for the lessons I have to learn on this journey with a weak body in tow. I often wonder if having lived with good health...would I have been too self absorbed, or even more selfish than I already am?
Someone obviously needs my undivided attention because I no longer take things for granted and feel fully aware of all things happening around me. Like the beautiful flowers that are growing in my backyard. Each one is vibrant in its own right and I am appreciating Springtime more than ever. But the learning must be more than how to appreciate something? I think I am waiting for something profound to suddenly dawn in my brain. Maybe I am wrong to feel that I have given something up and therefore expect something in return? Our accumulations don't leave this Earth with us and that is not what I am after. Accomplishments don't either, so what am I looking for? Quality time is what I think most people crave...and I have plenty of that, yes...I have plenty of that.

18 Comments:

Blogger dreamergirl said...

this is beautiful.
and i'm glad to read that you're fine :)

with much love,

xo silvia

1:12 PM  
Blogger Dana Jones said...

I'm sorry to hear you have not been feeling well. As for spring, I have been imagining large flowing masses of flowers in my beds, but I only get a few sparse flowers. Maybe I am supposed to enjoy one-on-one time with the blooms?

5:42 PM  
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8:21 PM  
Blogger Wanda said...

Oh Darlene, how nice to hear you are feeling better.

The berries look delicious and I could just see your beautiful face in that sunlight.

Pastor Dad and I will be in town June 24-29. I will call you so we can schedule some time together. OK?

Love and Hugs by darling ~~
Wanda Mom

8:24 PM  
Blogger Midsummerprism said...

The berries are cute!!! We have berries here too, but they look a bit different. I love plopping them into my mouth and just feel its sweet juice ooze out.

I'm glad that your feeling better. I've been reading you for a long time already and have actually been with you in your journeys through the ups and downs...never fails to make me smile when I read you feeling better again..makes me feel good ad well.

11:59 PM  
Blogger Jack K. said...

I love your questions about your mission for this lifetime.

Perhaps your mission is to endure your physical condition with the grace that you do. More importantly, you are sharing your experience with the rest of the world and letting us know what it means to live with grace.

These words in Illusions that have been meaningful to me: We are all learners, doers, teachers.

Thanks for your inspiration.

5:22 AM  
Blogger tricia said...

So they say...in order to achieve great faith we must endure great trials

I think you must have the great faith :-)

Love,

Trish

12:59 PM  
Blogger sweet expressions said...

what truly honest and beautiful thoughts I so enjoy reading your posts
I am glad that you are feeling a bit better. your berries look great
I'll bet they tasted even better.


big hug to you

2:27 PM  
Blogger Michelle O'Neil said...

Beautiful post Darlene. Always reaching for that better feeling thought. I admire that about you.





BTW...the necklace was a hit! Thank you!

4:34 PM  
Blogger Shaz said...

This was gorgeous, with all that has happened over here in the last couple of weeks I am glad to hear you are feeling better.

Love and Hugs xxx

3:48 AM  
Anonymous Cindie said...

Darlene... I am so happy to hear that you are feeling better. I know that the days when you don't feel well are difficult... but you have such a gift to verbalize the feelings.

You write from your heart and it blesses so many people. God is using you in the midst of your pain... He meets you where you are and in turn you touch many lives.

The berries look yummy and I hope that you have a wonderful weekend.

4:25 AM  
Blogger Deb R said...

I hope you feel better each day, Darlene. You've been on my mind.

9:13 PM  
Blogger Eileen W. said...

I'm so sorry you haven't been feeling well. Your thoughts are beautiful and they speak to me on a similar level. What can this illness teach me? What do I really value? I get it. ((((hugs))))

8:12 AM  
Blogger pink sky said...

so happy you are turning the corner...your strength inspires me :)

4:33 AM  
Blogger curious girl (lisa) said...

missing your presence here and hope you are feeling even better.

1:50 PM  
Blogger dreamergirl said...

miss you
sending love
xox

3:16 PM  
Blogger kristen said...

I'm glad you're doing better:) Love the blog!!!

3:39 PM  
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