Q & A

Please excuse my absence.
I understand the freedom people are looking for when they "Blog Without Obligation" but, I don't know how to do that, especially when it comes to something that I've poured my heart into. However, I do like 'balance' and I am glad that this community is finding a way to accomplish that. We are all participants in this nationally recognised phenomenon and 'baby Blogger' is growing up. We are experiencing this firsthand and from the ground floor, just imagine what all of this will be like one year from now.

The last 12 months of my life have been painfully difficult and I honestly can't imagine getting through it without the support I have received from all of you, for this...I am eternally grateful.

~*~ I am experiencing a delayed reaction to the most recent crises that have occurred. The only way I can explain it is this...I gird myself to get through extreme difficulties by putting up walls of brick when I know that falling apart is not an option. Later, when it is safe, the walls begin to come down, one brick at a time and I am left with an unobstructed view of what has transpired. I realize that certain things will never be the same and now I must make my own transitions to fine tune these adjustments.

~* When Mark walks into a room, the cane, limp and the careful way he holds his body are all a part of who he is now. I miss the old Mark, the one I didn't have to worry so much about, is that okay?

~* My health has deteriorated and my last few doctor's appointments have all ended with the same conclusion... I'm getting older and living with Lupus is just going to be more difficult. They can only offer me so much and the rest is left for me to deal with. Just when I feel like I've got a handle on my circumstances, they change...and the spiritual lessons are endless and often tiring. It doesn't help that I am a deep thinker with loads of thinking time. Things often appear exaggerated or neglected and I find it all very confusing to figure out. Again, I grieve the loses and try to make adjustments with what is left over.

~* I must...must work on my website. Even though my focus and vision are locally centered (getting my wares into the surrounding cities where I live) time and time again, it is obvious that a business cannot be maintained without a website. It is no longer an option, but a given. I am doing this all on my own, have purchased the programs, brainstormed the ideas...I must put the wheels in motion, I have procrastinated long enough. I keep second guessing myself and have to constantly hush the negative voices in my head that say....I'm not even going to put these words into print, I am smart and I can do this. (:$)

~* I am going to release the pressure that I put on myself and take a blogging break. I am going to stop reading other's blogs without commenting, a very bad habit I've adopted. If I read, I will comment, I can't make it any more plain than that. For myself, I can't be working on a website project and wondering about posting and pictures. If I get an urge to post, I will. I am reminding myself that my journal book doesn't scream at me if I don't write in it and neither will you.

~* I am not going anywhere and I am never too busy for lovely email lovins. This may take me 2 weeks, or an entire month, I've never created a website before...I hope my stone age computer classes resurface.... ha ha!

~*~ Lastly, I am loving you, appreciating you and not leaving...just breathing a little :)











(This is the first draft of my business card)

love and see you soon! xxx ooo