Tuesday, April 17, 2007

My View

I know the picture is crooked, but this is the view from where I lay. This is what I see. Much of my day happens here, what I call, "my corner on the couch." There are better views of the TV in this room and my couches are huge and empty, but my purpose is not to watch TV. This is where I read, write, spend time on my laptop, make my jewelry and talk on the phone. This is where I rest, laugh, cry, think, meditate, study and conduct my very personal spiritual conversations.

My TV is quietly on in the background (often muted) because it is my connection to the world. It is some noise breaking the silence in this big house other than the sounds I make myself, the turning of a page, the clicks of my computer keys, the clashing of one bead against another and the snap of my metal cutters. My hubby often stops by at the lunch hour and asks me what I am watching, "I don't know" is my typical response and usually, I really don't.

What I do pay attention to, is a news interruption because something critical has happened somewhere in the world. The volume automatically raises a few decibels and the intro musical tones alert me to pay attention. As you already know, yesterdays tragedy was the shootings that took place at Virginia Tech University here in the United States. I sat there and listened, cried and felt such grief for that community. Then I quickly posted the candle in their memory and later on, right before I went to bed, checked it to see if all was in working order.

Right there, below my candle post, was "My Rant" that I shared with all of you. My mind reeled as I thought about Mark and the miracle of his life. I thought about my daughter, who had just called to say goodnight and I love you. I thought about how angry and in pain I was when I wrote that post, feeling compelled to use the word 'Freedom' in the title.

I hung my head and said aloud, "and now all those poor murdered people had their freedoms ripped away and their families are burdened, bound with pain and grief."

We have the right to rant out loud and be heard, but in my life...it always seems that as soon as I have had my moment, I am quickly made aware of just how lucky I am and that I have so much to be thankful for...

and in that moment, my rantings sound quite pitiful, indeed.


Anonymous Cindie said...

How sweet and true... we often grumble about our lot in life.Then when a tragedy such as the one in Virginia occurs we are reminded of how much we really do have.

You are entitled to rant and rave though when you are feeling low... it is much healthier than keeping it all in. I have found through reading your blog though that you are also quick to praise the "highs."


5:54 PM  
Blogger Boho Girl said...

i love you, sis...


6:03 PM  
Blogger LEstes65 said...

But that's the beauty of real friends. They understand the context of the moment. They also understand that context might only be fully understood by you alone at that singular moment. And we always stand by you and think, "Amen" or "You GO girl!" or whatever. Because we love you.

6:27 PM  
Blogger Wanda said...

Oh Darlene,

Today in my post I'm ranting about the frustrations of hearing aids....shame on me!! I am so grateful today for Life, and so saddened by the tragedy in Virginia.

Thank you for saying what we all feel!

I love you as always, and have loved wearing my blue bead neclace today. *smile*

Love and Hugs
Wanda Mom

7:08 PM  
Blogger Shaz said...

What can be said, I am where your at with complete understanding. x

8:25 PM  
Anonymous Brian said...


Love is healing my friend.

9:19 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i hear you.


9:32 PM  
Anonymous Dreamer Girl said...

~*~ Darlene ~*~

Love and hugs to you.

XX Sil

11:29 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I find that so true myself. I have often complained or threw a tantrum over something that in hind sight, the next day, seemed insignificant in light of what goes on in the world.

Commonality is what we humans are all about. Your talent for writing and expressing what we all go through or feel is truly a gift.


11:40 PM  
Blogger Michelle O'Neil said...

I don't think your rants sound pitiful. I think it is a healthy response to an unbearable situation.

If you were to dwell there it would be counterproductive, but you don't. You feel it and move through, which is a lot healthier than repression.


6:58 AM  
Blogger Star said...

I agree that times like these are humbling. As we give vent to our fears and frustrations, we must always remember to give thanks as well for our many blessings.

8:06 AM  
Blogger daisies said...

hugs hon ... i saw your candle last night and didn't notice anything else ... our rants are important i think because it gives us healthy ways to cleanse in this world that breaks our hearts as often as it fills us with joy ... xox

8:49 AM  
Blogger Mary Timme said...

But how real!

1:34 PM  
Blogger Jack K. said...

You might want to switch to a musical background rather than TV. I find it very uplifting.

Hope you feel better soon.

The Reiki energy comes your way every night. Use it if you want to do so.

5:01 PM  

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