Thursday, March 01, 2007

Personal Growth

I admire the feel of you,
so fragile is the onion peel
surface of your skin.

I disrupt the solitude,
turning the ground, as I prepare
a resting place.

I strategically lay you there,
cover and fill, resembling
death with a funeral, but no

I depart and the waiting begins,
patience abides with anticipation
for the change in season.

I understand the perseverance
that it takes to force through
this stony ground.

I know the effort released
to raise yourself up as high as you can,
feeling the sun on your face.

I love you for the pleasure you bring;
the smiles that appear because you chose
to break way beyond the dark...

and you achieve perfection. Calling out to all who admire and soon, they gaze with great appreciation.

~*~*~*~*Today I called and made an appointment with the counselor. I feel like I have lost the way to being me. Perhaps not lost, just a little crowded under all the responsibilities that go along with nursing an adult child back to health.

I need a vacation


Anonymous Sophie said...

I have no words to describe the beauty in those words your wrote.

On a different note: I´ve felt I needed a vacation for some time now, but in the back of my mind I knew that I'm not able to go on a vacation for some time. I settle with the planning. Reading about the places I want to visit, day dream about being there etc. It helps :)

Sending you lots of love and hugs,

XO Sophie

2:20 AM  
Blogger Vanessa said...

beautiful, eloquent you.
that poem is lovely, like you.
and, yes, with that same perseverance, you will get back to where you started from, eventually, and work forward again from there... I know you will.
so glad to hear that you've taken a step towards helping yourself.
you are such a great example :)
Love to you,

3:44 AM  
Anonymous poet said...

that was beautiful. take care and sending hugs across the miles and interweb.

4:34 AM  
Blogger maggiegracecreates said...

I am so happy that you now have the time to get out of "survival" mode and take care of yourself. You have not lost your way. You are still aware of who you are and you are fighting back to beauty. I continue to pray for you and your family as the healing continues.


5:54 AM  
Blogger The Whole Self said...

you deserve a vacation, that's for sure.

i hope you find some calmness and peace soon...still thinking of you.

6:16 AM  
Blogger Michelle O'Neil said...

Beautiful poetry Darlene.

Post traumatic stress my dear. You have been through a terrible nightmare. You will come through the darkness, like the flowers you describe. You are fully supported.
We adore you and thank you for sharing your journey so honestly with us.


6:53 AM  
Blogger Jack K. said...

Thank you for brightening my life with such a beautiful poem. The photos made it even more special.

The poem is your recognition of the growth cycle you are undergoing. You are planting the bulb of your beautiful flower self that has the strength to endure the hardships of breaking through the rocky soil to bring joy and beauty to the rest of us. I am fortunate to have been guided to your garden.

I agree. You do need a vacation. Taking care of others requires taking care of self too. I am sure the counselor will be of great assitance.

Please continue to...

serve others, care about those you serve and share the love in your heart.

7:08 AM  
Blogger Star said...

Such tender verses, Darlene, and I think they are a harbinger of renewal that will be coming to you soon. From the dark places of confinement you will re-emerge with new vigor and beauty.

Sending love to wrap around you as you wait for the growing to begin...

xoxo Star

7:10 AM  
Blogger LEstes65 said...

Huge hugs, tons of love and always my prayers.

7:40 AM  
Anonymous teresa sheeley said...

Beautiful poem Darlene! And that's exactly what you will do, rise up and feel the sun on your face. Sounds like you need an ocean vacation!

Love You!


8:03 AM  
Blogger daisies said...

this is so incredibly beautiful and yes you do deserve a holiday ... glad you are looking after you and recognizing that you need help :)

warm hugs

8:04 AM  
Blogger Tonja said...

rewI have been reading your blog since your son was hurt. I stumbled upon it. I am so happy he is doing well. I truly understand the feelings you are having. Ihave an adult son who has a degenerative brain disease. He is homebound and my life revovles around him. Sometimes it seems as if I don't exist except as his mom. And while I am so blessed to be able to help and comfort him, sometimes I just get weary. I have found that short trips away, a few days at a time are the best respite for me. I will pray for your strength and health as you work through this.

11:38 AM  
Anonymous Brian said...

I love your poem, it is so filled with hope and joy.

The path will clear soon Darlene.

11:45 AM  
Blogger Nic Bridges said...

You do need a vacation, but in the meantime why don't you give yourself a little break - take some time out and do something for yourself that you love (art gallery, day spa, walk in the park, whatever). You deserve some time out.

1:00 PM  
Anonymous amy said...

My therapist always says that the best sign of mental health is knowing when to ask for help...good for you for listening to yourself.

Lots of love, dear one.

1:08 PM  
Blogger bee said...

sweet one,

these words are luscious. and yes, i have no doubt you need a vacation...take care of yourself.


4:31 PM  
Anonymous Cindie said...

When we are caregivers we need to have time to take care of ourselves as well. We aren't really doing anyone any good when we don't take time for doing the things that we love to do.
I take care of my almost 8 month old grandson and I realize that I need to have "me" time or I am not enjoying life as I should.
Take the time you need to heal... to search... to find hope in a brighter tomorrow.

7:41 AM  
Blogger amy said...

I tend to lean forward this time of year in hope for the spring. That is great that you are going to see a counselor now, and not a few years or even months from now.

10:51 AM  
Blogger la vie en rose said...


10:59 AM  
Blogger red sun said...

wishing a light, to find your path.
i'll be here supporting you if you need another counselor to lean on. beautiful beautiful poem.

12:01 PM  
Blogger cjhively said...

I've been following the story of your family's ordeal since my mom gave me the link to your site back in December. I am not even sure how my mom found out about your site, probably a blogger friend of a blogger friend, etc. You are so blessed and fortunate to have the opportunity nurse your beloved child back to health. God's grace and mercy are truly upon your family! I have a friend who lost his 27 year old wife last week. Laura was 25 years old and had been married to Jeff for 11 months when she was broadsided by a dump truck at 60 mph. She suffered a tramautic brain injury that left her in an awake coma for the remainder of her life. Her and her family fought a long hard battle for the past 19 months. Her husband shares their story of her road to recovery at I only share this with you because I have been praying for your family and I am amazed to see what a remarkable recovery the Lord has made in Mark's life. The pictures you posted of him after he was able to come home were inspirational! You are so fortunate to have him with you! All of my best to you and your family!

2:25 PM  
Blogger Shaz said...

Beautiful Darb.......Love you

9:52 PM  

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