Summer on the Inside

Winter
the crisp cold
and whipping winds
blowing around Falls remnants
cover up the brilliance
of the sun

While I
do my own covering
to keep summers warmth
inside my bones
a memory of light
for my mind

~*~ Winter is not a healthy season for me. It seems to exasperate my symptoms and the biting cold increases my pain. But, it is also a time for mental challenge because Summer gives me the luxury of a 'mind control' vacation. Maintaining a positive attitude takes work, being able to smile, on the inside, while you're hurting, is a job. I battle away the depression that tries to infiltrate my walls. Limited mobility makes this very difficult, but not impossible. I like to do, to go, to accomplish, to create, to move around at a fast pace. I have learned to remove my mind from what is going on in my body and put my 'awareness' in other things. That is the key to living with pain, you have to force your mind past the pain and channel it into something else.This process is what keeps me away from depression and helps to limit my intake of pain relieving medicines. The photograph formed in my mind during one of my meditations and it says this... "My appearance may look like winter, but my smile comes from the Spring, that is forever blooming, in my soul."