Saturday, December 09, 2006

Summer on the Inside


















Winter
the crisp cold
and whipping winds
blowing around Falls remnants
cover up the brilliance
of the sun

While I
do my own covering
to keep summers warmth
inside my bones
a memory of light
for my mind

~*~ Winter is not a healthy season for me. It seems to exasperate my symptoms and the biting cold increases my pain. But, it is also a time for mental challenge because Summer gives me the luxury of a 'mind control' vacation. Maintaining a positive attitude takes work, being able to smile, on the inside, while you're hurting, is a job. I battle away the depression that tries to infiltrate my walls. Limited mobility makes this very difficult, but not impossible. I like to do, to go, to accomplish, to create, to move around at a fast pace. I have learned to remove my mind from what is going on in my body and put my 'awareness' in other things. That is the key to living with pain, you have to force your mind past the pain and channel it into something else.This process is what keeps me away from depression and helps to limit my intake of pain relieving medicines. The photograph formed in my mind during one of my meditations and it says this... "My appearance may look like winter, but my smile comes from the Spring, that is forever blooming, in my soul."

30 Comments:

Blogger Jane Poe (aka Deborah) said...

Wonderful words, you have to force your mind past the pain and channel it into something else ... wonderful, but I wish you didn't have this struggle, dear. What a gorgeous vibrant picture, you beautiful woman, you. Much love, peace and gentle hugs, JP

12:27 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Such a beautifully radiant smile. Suchcourage in your words.
I'm sending you a warm hug,
Angelax

1:39 PM  
Anonymous angela marie said...

Oh my sweet friend, I love you and what you did with this picture of yourself. Beautiful!

Sending you a big warm hug.
(((gentle squeeze)))

1:53 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Such a beautiful photo of you Darlene. Showing clearly your radiant, summery and brave spirit.

You are a inspirational woman. I cannot imagine what it is like to live with consstant pain.

You will ALWAYS have summer on ths inside as your soul is full of warmth and compassion. Your loving energy radiates from every photo I have ever seen of you.

Dotee xoxo

3:01 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

you are so wonderful. i'm sorry that winter is so hard on you, but i hope that dreaming of summer helps you a little...

4:34 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

you are so wonderful. i'm sorry that winter is so hard on you, but i hope that dreaming of summer helps you a little...

4:35 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

you are so wonderful. i'm sorry that winter is so hard on you, but i hope that dreaming of summer helps you a little...

4:36 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

you are so wonderful. i'm sorry that winter is so hard on you, but i hope that dreaming of summer helps you a little...

4:37 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

you are so wonderful. i'm sorry that winter is so hard on you, but i hope that dreaming of summer helps you a little...

4:40 PM  
Blogger Deb R said...

That's such a good meditation! I want to remember that one. I'm sorry to hear winter is so hard in so many ways and am sending good thoughts your way for beautiful spring-like days that make you smile~~~~

9:38 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You have a beautiful blog. I've enjoyed the visit :)

10:54 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I love this...finding the summer within. I too, dread the coming of winter (especially in seattle). I like this idea of radiating the spring and summer from the inside. It also helps me to make sure I exercise, get some sunlight when it's possible, and when all else fails--take a trip to somewhere hot in sunny!!
PS--love your photo

11:21 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

inspiring as always, darlene. take care and i am sending blogland hugs across the miles.
poet.

3:30 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

how beautiful. i love your thoughts on this. we're all with you this winter, getting through it with you.

xo

5:27 AM  
Blogger gerry rosser said...

If there were a way, I'd send you some of today's warmth. You are are an inspiration with your attitude. And a treasure in your beauty.

7:41 AM  
Blogger Romina Bacci said...

you are gorgeous inside out.
i'm holding you right now and sending little fairy girls to warm your day :)

11:50 AM  
Blogger Alexandra G said...

You are so radiant, beautifull, and BRAVE. And as I read your post, I was thinking this woman needs to go visit her baby sister in warm and sunny LA as soon as possible!!! If I do end up moving back to LA too this summer-not sure yet!- you can also stay with me anytime. I understand how weather can exacerbate symptoms. My sister has MS and with the heat in LA its actually not an ideal place for her to be . I am sending you plenty of "cyberwarmth" and love-and of course, hugs!

12:24 PM  
Blogger Alexandra G said...

forgot! Can you email me your mailing address at leapbrightly@yahoo.com ? Thank you!

12:36 PM  
Blogger twitches said...

You definitely have summer in your soul!

1:21 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You are a ray of sunshine with that smile, Darlene! I love how you've combined the bright flower of summer with the picture of you all bundled up.

Thinking warm thoughts and sending them your way.

XXOO Star

1:42 PM  
Blogger rising to the challenge said...

you.are.amazing
and your warmth just shines right out!
as I sit by the fireplace tonight, looking at my newly mounted Christmas tree and my hanging star-shaped fairy lights, braving the beginnings of my first full Irish winter in 13 years, I send you all the warmth that I can muster!
Love,
Vx

2:00 PM  
Blogger dd said...

Lots of warm summery thoughts to you today. The thought "summer is a state of mind" just came to me...may you be in a summer state of mind all winter and feel at your peak. Your pic is great.

sandy
xoxo

2:06 PM  
Blogger Bohemian Girl said...

i felt full of pride for you perspective here. it is very inspiring. i know it is so challenging to channel the pain into other places that provide more peace for you but if anyone's brain can do this, yours can.

i love you, sis...and am proud of your words in this post.

thank you for your amazing words on my post today.

xoxoxo

2:41 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am glad you have a mental game plan for keeping the demons at bay. We're here for you!

6:58 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

you have such a beautiful smile, darlene!! i learn so much from your strength...you are truly a gift! xoxo!

8:04 PM  
Anonymous Teresa Sheeley said...

You are too beautiful!! What a lovely smile you have, and great photo!!

Sending you an email!!

xoxoxox
Teresa

8:12 PM  
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12:03 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thanks for visiting my blog! I like the candle light post. Happy Monday and take care :)

9:52 AM  
Blogger blackdaisies said...

i am so sorry that winter is so hard on you but your positive energy must be so healing and you are so very inspiring :)

1:01 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

So enjoyed this post and your photography on this one.

9:24 PM  

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