Wednesday, November 01, 2006

This little beauty is my baby, no not the hairy one with the big ears, the one with the big smile. She earned her degree living just an hour and a half away from me and has lived on her own, working as well as going to school and now she is ready for the world. She has decided to move to the BIG city and will be living a little farther away now. She was there today, by herself, attending two separate job interviews. She called me just before going into her first one, trying to shake herself of any nervousness and right before we hung up she said, "Moma, tell me I'm great, tell me I'll make a good impression." Well of course she is great, of course she has worked hard these past four years to earn the right to work and live in a big city, but that is when it hit me. We have been talking about this for years, but that was the moment it really became real for me. My baby was wearing a black power suit, high heels and was just about to walk into an establishment that may change her life forever. She was a woman, a proud, aggressive, hard working woman who was about to start the career she has been dreaming of all of her life. She has always been one to make herself goals and reach them and this was the moment.

I didn't want to cry, not then, not right now, but us mom's can't always control our tears. "Oh, Moma, you're going to make me cry and I don't want to mess up my makeup."
*deep breath* "I'm just so proud of you honey and I can't believe this is really happening."
And it did, and it went really well. But I'll never understand how that girl in the black power suit, the one with all the confidence, came from me. It doesn't matter what clothes she puts on, or where she ends up working...when I look at her, I always see my beautiful baby in her eyes.

21 Comments:

Blogger bronxbt said...

i wish i could hug you.
i want you as my momma...

purrr.
kneed kneeeeed

~ B

10:23 PM  
Blogger Bohemian Girl said...

ohhhh...this got me all choked up!

You Go Angie Baby!
Rock this world!!

We are all so proud of you for living your dreams, City Girl.

xoxoxo,
Love Your Auntie Kindred

10:28 PM  
Anonymous ceanandjen said...

Oh Darlene!!!! This makes me smile so much...for many different reasons. I am so glad that A's interview went so well. And remember, a huge portion of why she is the woman she is today is because of the positive influence she has received from you. You have instilled these values in her...and now you are watching her fly.

Your pride is well deserved...you raised a beautiful and remarkable daughter!!!

xoxoxox

12:09 AM  
Blogger Susannah said...

aw, sweet woman, i would love you as my mama :-) but i'll settle for loving friendship instead. hugs to you and your baby girl... and i'll check in with you when i get back from lovin on your lil sis :-) xox

12:18 AM  
Blogger my pink sky said...

o.k...now you have me crying too. the power of motherhood. unlike anything else in this world! congratulations on you baby's big step, and on your job well done as her mom :)

4:16 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

ditto on the crying. this was wonderful to read, darlene.

5:10 AM  
Blogger Deb R said...

She is beautiful! (She looks a lot like her mom.) Here's hoping she gets exactly the job she wants!

6:07 AM  
Blogger Lisa (oceandreamer) said...

Darlene,this really choked me up. The feelings of love and pride you have for your daughter lept out off the screen. The feelings of love and nurture she gets from YOU was obvious in her phone call. This bond you share , this blending of your souls as mother and daughter will see both of you through anything!!! I so hope she gets the job of her dreams!
XOXO

8:49 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Aw - I'm all choked up thinking about you both embarking on your new journeys! love and good luck to both of you x x x x x

p.s. and I wonder where she got that beautiful big mouth from? ;-)

8:55 AM  
Blogger Jane Poe (aka Deborah) said...

What a lovely, maternal post. I felt your pride and love as you spoke of your precious girl transitioning to the next stage of her life. {big hugs}, d

9:30 AM  
Blogger Turquoise CRO said...

What a co-incidence Darlene! My sweet Honey has her black power suit on today too for an interview! Aren't we lucky to have such precious daughters??? Good Luck Angela! xoxooxx

11:01 AM  
Anonymous your little one said...

ahhh....tears...thank you so much moma! i love you! just remember you have made me the woman I am today. :)

1:04 PM  
Blogger Goddess of Leonie said...

oh WOW

dars

that is so precious...

1:46 PM  
Blogger LiteraryGirl said...

She's gorgeous!

2:16 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

This made me cry.
Tears rolling down my cheeks.
I know exactly what you speak of Darlene.
They carry your heart, and can break it just by looking at them; it is an incredible gift we are blessed with that is for sure.
I can hardly believe M came from me either, but she did.

Just as this remarkable beautiful babe came from you, and it is *YOU* that she CHOSE as her Mama... she wanted you to raise her... and help create the woman she has become today.
And of that YOU have every reason to be PROUD ~of A and of you too!!!~
DARLENE... I love you so much.
You are amazing!
Oh, yeah… and I have told M that even when she is 30, I will make her snuggle with me… and call her my baby.
Forever.
Bx

3:06 PM  
Blogger Lucky Candice said...

It just goes by so fast. I'm trying to cherish every moment with my little baby.

LC

4:00 PM  
Blogger twitches said...

Aww...sweet. Such an accomplishment to raise an independent, strong woman like that. You go, girl!

4:17 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You may not see yourself in her, but I do. You have good reason to be proud of her.

I'm off to a slow start on NaNoWriMo. Let me know how it goes for you ;-)

5:02 PM  
Blogger Amber said...

What a beautiful post! My own little girl is only two, and already I know it will be like this for me someday... And I hope she knows she can all me for what she needs, like your daughter called you. You sound like a great mom!

:)

5:14 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

As someone with an amazing relationship with my mom, and who is about the same age as your daughter, I know how special the mom-daughter relationship is. Lucky both of you! XO

5:41 PM  
Blogger Georgia said...

Darlene:)
You are such a fabulous mama:) I hope that someday my children can look at me like she does to you.

Thank you so much for your kind words to me today. They were exactly what I needed to hear... or read. I got all teary reading them and I know that you were so right. Thank you ever so much.

Love to you,

xoxo
Georgia

10:53 PM  

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