Self-Portrait Challenge ~Imperfections~

I ask you to value...


Oh, I had so many plans, plans that no one knew about. Yes, I was a dreamer, I got in trouble all the time in grade school for day~dreaming. One time in college I had a professor walk right up to me during his lecture, while still speaking, he stopped right in front of me, glared me down and then cleared his throat. Where was I? Somewhere else making history.

Marrying young, having children right away, neither of those things discouraged me from dreaming and making new dreams. Everytime I learned something new, "I want to do that, hey, I'm going to do that!" and I would. Ask any of my family members how aggressively I attack learning to create, picking up a new task, or saving money for something I want. Nothing could douse my love of being a dreamer, except for one thing, my health. I lost it in 1995 and for many years it stole the essence of who I was and I'm still not the dreamer I used to be, tragedy does that to you. I'm slowly figuring out who 'limited' me is, but this process has taken years to figure out. I lost my career and a whole lot of abilities that used to make me feel invincible. Slowly, I'm gaining ground...very very slowly. And I'm making peace with this process.

When I heard the portrait challenge subject was imperfections, I groaned. I'm working hard to perfect the lost area's of my life, so I thought I would take this opportunity to ask something of you that is the opposite of living with an incurable decease....and that is to value your good health. Be grateful for it and be a dreamer and after you dream, then do whatever your heart desires. Take a chance, jump off that cliff, shut out the doubters and the unbelievers that say, "You can't do that?" Oh yes you can. Where there's a will...there's a way. I don't get to have good health, but you do and I get to read about all of the amazing things you do, all of the cliffs that you jump off of and I smile and laugh and genuinely feel so happy when you accomplish a dream goal. I was on that bike riding challenge with bek, I live in the UK with bb and I'm writing that novel with Susannah. So go out and do something wonderfully crazy and then come back and tell me about it....I love all the stories you tell me and I feel them too....so, thank you :D