Wednesday, October 25, 2006

















The mass is benign, it is external and not even invasive. More tests are going to be done to give us some understanding about some symptoms, but today...today is new and relief does not even describe *huge pause*

I'm so freakin tired right now...I have cried, hyper ventilated, screamed, thrown up, boo hoo cried, laughed, cried, been scared, angry, confused, elated and now I have come crashing back down to earth! (and did I mention that I have not slept for 48 hours?)

What would I have done without you, yes you! So many of you said prayers, sent positive healing love and said hope giving comments that our Doctor said he would not rule out a miracle in this situation! Yes, he said that, and when he did, as we sat there is his office, I thought of you...and you and you and you. When I was at my lowest point, oh...somewhere around 3 a.m. in the morning, I was re-reading your comments and emails, asking God for strength and pushing away all of the dark fear that was working overtime trying to discourage me, and it didn't work. Never underestimate the power of your words, thoughtful support and the time that you take to give into another human being. I feel so full :)

I humbly thank each one of you. I am grateful...so so grateful and when I finally get some sleep, I will be doing a lot of intense thinking, returning emails and (writing) about just how much all of this has touched and changed a very tender part of my life.

Thank you, not just words...true gratitude!!!

21 Comments:

Blogger Shaz said...

I am now crying with relief and abundant joy. Dar words cant exhibit how happy I am for both of you. I have been awake with you...Praying and believeing that all would be well I am so relieved and Happy.Sleep well my angel, lay in your gorgeous guys arms and feel blessed. (Still Crying) But overjoyed.
Bless you Both.
Shaz xoxoxox

1:07 AM  
Blogger ruby said...

WONDERFUL! i am grinning from ear to ear and so thankful that everything is okay. (big hug!)

1:09 AM  
Blogger b/sistersshoes said...

shaz ~ I have lost the first layer of skin on my nose, and my eyelids look like lips :) now we're laughing and feeling blessed. Thank you sweet friend xoxo

ruby ~ I've been smiling for hours now...you fit right in! :)
Thank you wonderful friend xoxo

1:35 AM  
Blogger Susannah said...

Darling D, i have have only just caught up on your posts - i didn't now this was happening, but i am relieved to hear the good news, my love. blessings to you, always - i'm so glad your bloggie tribe circled around you when you needed them :-) xxox

2:01 AM  
Blogger rising to the challenge said...

YESsssss!
I'm so delighted that your prayers and ours have been answered. Such relief. Rest now and recharge your batteries.
Vanessa

2:01 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am SO HAPPY to hear this news.
You rest up darling Darlene... and we will catch up soon, of that you can be sure of.
I loves you !!!
(((hugs))) to you and J.
Bx

2:01 AM  
Blogger Goddess of Leonie said...

FUCK YEAH BABY........
this is the BEST news honey....

gLad, so GlaD to hear this...

bless you and your hubs
xoxoxoxoxoxo

love YOU shining tender exhausted elated one ~~~

4:13 AM  
Blogger Deb R said...

YES!!!!
I'm SO happy for you both!!!!
I'm smiling with tears in my eyes. :-)

9:12 AM  
Blogger Bright Phoenix said...

Oh that is SUCH fantastic news! You deserve a break. The universe always listens to prayers.

Now go get some rest, woman!

11:18 AM  
Blogger Turquoise CRO said...

Thank GOD!!! Halleilulah! Alleluia! Love and Praises and a big PHEW!!!! from your turquoise Cro!!!! Miracles DO HAPPEN! now, rest dear girly!!! REST!!! and keep snuggleing!!! Kiss and give a big bear hug to J for me! *sigh* xoxoxoxoxooxoxx

11:45 AM  
Blogger la vie en rose said...

*whew* when i read your words i felt my heart smile.


now....get some sleep!

11:56 AM  
Anonymous ceanandjen said...

This is a sing from the roof tops kind of day lovely Darlene!!!! I feel a flutter of happiness and relief for you. Miracles are possible, and I am incredibly happy that one came to you.

xoxoxoxox

1:01 PM  
Blogger b/sistersshoes said...

Oh, my land! I feel so grateful to all of you I am overflowing AND resting as I read and catch up on all of you!

Thank you thank you thank you

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx darlene

1:43 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

oh, thank god.

literally. darlene, words cannot express how happy i am for you. love you.

3:43 PM  
Blogger Bohemian Girl said...

we were holding our breath over here for a few days. Jay is such a special man with so many gifts. it is so easy to fall in love with him. our hearts were heavy with the thought that Big Strong Jay Man would not be well. when i got your voicemail, i was driving and screamed "wooohoooo" out the window with a tear in my eye.

i love my brother.

xoxoxo

5:02 PM  
Blogger my pink sky said...

such wonderful shout-from-the-treetops news!!! my joy is overflowing for you and your dear one...now rest and replenish...you have faught, and won, the long agonizing war of waiting. xoxoxoxo

5:29 PM  
Blogger Jane Poe (aka Deborah) said...

Dearest Darlene,
It is with pain, fear, and relief that I read your last three posts. I have been cocooned in my own pain the past few days, not blogging, not reading ... and then, I read what you've been going through - the fear, the worry, your own pain, your sweet hubby's pain - and I wish I had been more present. Thank God that you have been surrounded by love and support of others in this brilliant blogging community we share. These lovely people are a GIFT!
Much peace, love, hugs, and good thoughts to you and yours. Fondly, Deborah

9:34 PM  
Blogger gerry rosser said...

Thanks for sharing the good news. I'm very happy for you and your loved ones.

5:57 AM  
Blogger maggiegracecreates said...

So excited for you both. Will lift prayers of celebration and thanksgiving. for you now.
HAve a beautiful day.

9:37 AM  
Blogger Lucky Candice said...

Wow, I can totally relate to your posts. My husband has a brain tumor. We're three years into it now and we just take it day to day. One thing, I never (yes, NEVER) take him for granted. Even when he's crabby and mad and grumpy I just smile and thank God he's still here with me.

Thank goodness for good news!!

LC

2:13 PM  
Blogger Patry Francis said...

So very happy for you! What great news!

8:44 PM  

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